i reminisce on the old block

<sub>i reminisce on the old block
yeah, i still do, sometimes

old block isnt hardly what its thought to be
memory turned fuzzy when its far away
didnt want to admit, its so hard, that we never had it our way
even when life was great

i reminisce the old time now with quiescence
essence of remembrance isnt the real thing and its better than the full heaviness
i remember kids yelling outside my window
i was scared so i closed the curtains all winter

when the voice of a child is more terrifying than a grown man
when every moment of quiet holds lifetimes of the unsaid
i reminisce the old block in my head

they were bouncing basketballs probably having fun
i felt id never known what that was
well, at least not since life begun

how about the first time the family silence was broken
and i said what they hoped would remain unspoken
i was already disowned then

how about the time i was sold out by my own kin
sure it showed me my skin was thicker than the blood within
sure it showed me ive never known my own relatives

they said keep your friends close and your enemies closer
if family is familiar enemies ill stop em at a ten foot pole then
you say a bio parent matters when im flattered to originate from a whole other solar system

im a futurist i got no time for algorithms
only concerned with images thats forward looking
you think its tunnel vision but i see the light at the end most of you been overlooking

there was a woman who believed in death
there was a man who spoke smoke with his breath
both of them ended up dressing for the flowerbed on the old block

i never been so haunted by the sound of children
whats supposed to fill with joy only made me ill then
but that was when my thoughts were still little then

there was a fly that i hated
i cried every night when the sun died and faded
everything i tried to write felt like a lie, and dated

there were parades on the old block
i was searching for the one rose that never fades but it dont talk
i had to wait for the wind to make the way, and light the spark
i found her crying in the dark

i reminisce on the old block</sub>